Heaven

Well right now I'm at my moms' house in Osage. In her room, that's where the computer is. I'm being homeschooled because Newcastle school didn't work out neither did the Upton one. The school in Newcastle, every one in 7th grade hated me, including Jonathan. Yes we broke up a long time ago. And at this moment he is dating Maddie Murphy who by the way has been stabbing me in the back, she lied about me, and always talked Jon into dumping me. Then in Upton, I wasn't exactly happy and the school did some things that my parents did agree with. So right now my mom is my teacher, and I couldn't be happier. My best friend is probably Shayla, Jaymes' sister. And Jayme is probably my 2nd best friend. While I was in Upton I dated a guy named Dylan. He was really sweet, we are still friends and talk almost everyday (I'm so done with dating, maybe just really good friends will do just fine). I'm 13 still, turning 14 on December 10th. Katrina is doing good she is 7, right now she is at her friends house. Katrina is still really annoying but she is alot of fun. She goes to her friends' house more then I ever do. My mom has been doing really good, still in College, Criminal Justice. My dad Dustin is running a rig for Rockwell, he like the pay but he says he is a little unhappy about the hours and the fact that he is responisble for all of his crew. Which means he could kill them, and that is a big risk. My dad Chad I haven't seen him in a while. He has been kind of childish until about a week ago. He called my mom and was thinking about giving up his rights to me because he thought everyone would be happier, and he also thought that I wasn't happy. But he actually started sounding like a dad.. he may never be considered my dad dad (like my dad Dustin)to me, but he is my dad. His wife Tara, I don't know how she is and don't really care to know. She has been a witch to me and my mom.
I'm getting braces here soon. Whenever we can finially get everything paid for. The best news is I most likely only have to wear them for 1 year. Um.. let's see. Right now I'm finishing up homework hehe. Oooh animals! We have 6 dogs! We still have Snickers, Prissy, and Girr. But our new additions are KaraMel who is a Pitt Bull, Choco which is one of Snickers' puppies, and Dakota who we in a way adopted. We still have LiLy our Chinchilla. My toad died quite a while ago. My sister has a hamster named San Fransisco (Sisco for short) but she put him on the floor a few weeks ago and now we can't find him. My mom thinks she is still alive because some of the hamster food is gone each day along with its' bedding. (We leave the cage open so it can get food and water.) And we have 1 other pet it's a hedgehog, his name is Frosty, and he is my little boy! Snickers is still my baby. She sleeps with me every night and still has me wrapped around her little paw. I might get to visit my g-ma Elana in Arizona this summer! That should be loads of fun. And also I might get to go to a week long camp that I hang with girls my age and also horses! Well that's all for now. Need to finish up homework so the teach doesn't get mad lol. ttyl
-girl with no drama and is happy with her life.

Current Mood: cheerful

Everything has been going pretty ok. Well for some reason I can't concentrate in school, I've been getting bad grades, no matter how hard I try. Katie is really starting to piss me off (pardon my language) but well we were kind of friends, but I found out she only hung out with me was to get closer to Jonathan. Well later on in the week she asked him out, they were dating for a while. Then she told me she wanted to brake up with him, I said ok. But before she got the chance Jonathan broke up with her, and asked me back out. Of coarse I said yes because he means a lot to me. But now she is calling me a slut/skank/whore the whole enchalada! And now when she sees me she says "That's ok Jonathan got his slut back". I know she only does it to piss me off, so I just want to freakin just turn around and knock her ass on the ground (once again, I'm very ticked please forgive my cursing). And Quinn is dating Brittany. It's all good but now he keeps flirting with me, and he keeps butting into my personal life. (You know getting Brittany to tell him everything) And personally it is making me mad, if I wanted him to know that sort of stuff, I would have freakin told him... Next topic before I brake my mothers computer.... I haven't been going to see my dad lately. Last weekend me AND my mom tried calling him and their was no answer. I tried calling just a few hours ago and still no answer. Ok then but I just realized that no matter how hard I try, I absolutly hate going to my dads' house. I don't know why almost everyone is nice to me. Maybe it's because it wife (Tara) doesn't really like me. I'll never know why, but since she hates me she makes me feel uncomfortable and then I want nothing to do with her. Plus if something goes wrong, the 1st perosn she calls is me. (Literally) Next. My mom is having me try yet another councler. That is good I guess. I hope she isn't a bad councler, or I will just give up and get bad grades! I feel really bad for a kid in my class his name is Jerry (J.D.) And he asked me out and I said no, he asked me why and I said because I don't like you like that, but the way he made me fell guilty was because when he asked me out here were his words (Will you go out with me, even though I'm not the most popular guy in school?" Well got to go, my mom needs to use the computer, thanks for listening!
-Angel in Desquise

I know it has been a while since I've written.. With school started and the whole football thing, I have no time. Today kinda sucked.. Jayme called me,(it would have been better if she hadn't)she said Maddie, Leah, and her were in a fight over something really stupid, then she asked if I liked Maddie and Leah, I said I like them but Leah doesn't talk to me much anymore, and Maddie kinda lies.. Well it turns out I was on speaker phone and they were listening to our conversation.. I got really mad at her, she hung up on me.. About 2 minutes later, that same number called, it was Jaymes' sister Shayla. She told me about how they were going to call me back and say the phone died, and a whole bunch of crap. So I don't want anything to do with Jayme, Leah, or Maddie. Me and Jon, are on a break. I am not sure if it will be a forever thing or not, but I'm not in a real big hurry to go down that path again. Quinn asked me out again, I told him no. I know I might have been leading him on a little, but he kissed me, and it felt like kissing a brother, or a really good friend.. I felt so bad though, he will probably hate me now... Especially because lately he has taken the time to come see me. Snickers is doing good, she gets to sleep with me tonight. The kittens, that is a sore subject...All but 1 died, I'm not even sure if it is alive right now, my mom made us drop them off... That in a way is cool, just because I was so tired of taking care of them, tired of finding a kitten dead every 2 days... I let my frogs and snails go, they stank, and they were groess. It is Labor Day Weekend. I might get to go to the movies tomorow, I don't know, I haven't asked yet.. We bug bombed the house, so we had to wash everything, and in fact we aren't done with it all yet. I saw this totally hot guy on espin. And that other dude on there BullRider, ya, I haven't seen his picture yet, it won't show up on the screen. I went out with Derryk once, just to make Jon mad though, I know it wasn't right, he asked out Cori though, and I hate her. Don't worry after I went out with Derryk I felt so guilty, I dumped him.. I told him I only liked him as a friend and he said he felt the same way. Then Peyton asked me out like 4 times and each time I said no.. I'm going to try to be boy free for as long as I can.. That won't last long, lol! I have to get a Eye CheckUp on Tuesday, and a Pysical, sorry can't spell. Tuesday is the next football game, and I most likely have to miss it! I had to miss the 1st one and now the 2nd, I need to go to the games, it's important. Well that's all I can think of for now! So later!

I love animals so much, but they don't love me back.... I end up killing them.. I guess to get to the point, K.C. Died, and now my mom says that Baits has a disease, and it can kill him, and our dogs, so she is having my dad take him out and shoot him.... I can't stop crying! I love pets! I do but I'm a horrible pet owner! I don't get to go to my dads' house now, he doesn't want me getting Paige sick...

Current Mood: depressed

Hey,
So far every things have just been ok. I've been really sick lately. I've had the runny craps, stomache aches, and I've been puking. I'm only at the library writing because it makes my mom happy. I just read one of her entrys.. It made my cry, she was saying how unhappy she was, and that she wasn't enjoying her pets,or her..kids. I wish she could have had a better life. Don't take this the wrong way but I wish my dad signed the adoption papers to have taken me away. I no it's not my fault but since I was born, well after I was born everything went wrong for her, College, what she wanted to do with her life,money, her life style. She deserves better. I went to the pool the day before yesterday, there was many cute boys, me and Brittany got in a fight, ended up hugging. Then yesterday I went swimmming, I kept puking so my G-ma had to come get me early. I don't know if I can go to the mountains, Tara says it's just the Stomach flue, but I bet my mom knows better? Well, I'm ready to go home....

-Heaven

Current Mood: sick

Hey,
I'm at the library with Brittany...my cousin. She stayed the night last night. We watched the fireworks and almost got him by them like 5 times. There was a really hot guy there, actually 2 of them, Matt, and Devin. SMOKIN!!! One of them is 14 going on 15, he kept staring at me, nd the other one is bout my age and "has a girlfriend" so he says. Well ttyl, going to see if we can get Brittany a library card!

I promised I would write, I will try to write more often....but I lost my Library Card, and at my dads' house he doesn't have internet..But I promise I will look for it this weekend..I've been hanging out with my brother a lot...I've been babysitting him and my sister Paige with my cousin Bryan. Yesterday I went to the library to do tie die, I have some new friends now, Tanille and Kayla, they are twins, they go to their dads' house in Gillette for the summer just like me. I also had my g-ma and g-pas 50th anniversary, we had a huge party, it was.....AWESOME!!! Then today, I went out and bought a new swimmsuit, it is the CUTEST BIKINI!!! Snickers is really mad at me, just because I've been gone, tipical....I won't be back for 3 weeks!! Going camping!!! And along with that 4 wheeling!! Don't forget to leave a comment for me!!

-love Always
Heaven
P.S. JON ACTUALLY CALLED ME LAST NIGHT, TO BAD I WASN'T HOME TO ANSWER THE PHONE!!

Current Mood: excited

Hey,
My day was pritty good. I had some tests in Science, I'm pritty sure I did good. I also had a
Math Test, I may have mentioned, and I think I did ok on it. Today I thought Jon was mad at me but I guess I was wrong. He and Kyle are doing these tests on us "gurls". But he won't tell me about what the tests are for...well maybe I don't want to know..lol. I think I'm getting annoying to him...oh well, he is stuck with me, for a while anyway. Me and Jayme are doing ok. I tried talking to her earlier and she was supposed to call me back, but nothing yet. And it has been about 3-4 hours. I need to put up a new picture for my id, or watchama call it. Snickers is doing good. She has been feeling lonely since my baby KaraMel came....she feels like I've been giving KaraMel more attention, but hey I barely ever even pet her, I love her but, she isn't the same kind of dog mine are and so therefor I'm not really used to how she acts..I had a big dog once before but that was when I was in Kindergarten, and that was before I can remember...before I could type on the computer, or even spell computer! Her name was Lady, my 1st baby. When she died I didn't get a dog until about 1-2 years later, and I had to get used to her (Prissy) because she was a smaller kind of dog, so after I got used to small dogs, it's pritty hard to get used to big ones, again. I don't have any frogs or toads, I just didn't want to mention it because it was sad loosing them. My hamster Peaches died, I don't know why? I think she mgiht have got into Rat Poisening, something like that. But now I have my baby Oreo, she is so cute, she is a grayish color with white...OREO. If you want to see all my recent pictures you can go to my sight www.freewebs.com/heaven_leigh. There is polls, and a blog of mine. It is sort of cool...IT IS PINK!! That has been my favorite color lately. My D.V.D. player I got for Christmas broke. I need a new one, so right now I'm using my C.D. player, it sucks because of the Batteries. That is what I'm listening to. I have it up so loud I can't hear my sister jabbering on and on and on and on about nothing, well nothing that suits my interests..She isn't into boys, music, dancing, singing, typing, or playing any game on the computer..we have different tastes..Like she kept on annoying me here is my example ("Heaven, I made dinner, I put lots of pepper just for you, it's so good, do you like it? I like it"? That gets really annoying after a while. My crush on Jesse McCartney is over! It is so amazing, I don't even really like his music that much anymore. I love Fridays! My brother Andons' birthday is on Sunday (2nd) And my dad hasn't came to get me, I haven't really talked about this to my mom, but I'm missing my little brothers' Birthday, and I need to be there for him. I don't want to loose him like I lost Chanzhe, I've been thinking about him lately. I want to go to my brothers' grave tomorow, I want my mom to come with me, but it might be to painful for her. But I no I can't go alone...
Anyway I want to be there for Andon even if he isn't my "real" brother, well anyway, I better get off.


-Heavenly
P.S. I'll try to write tomorrow.

Current Mood: sad

Hey,
How is everyone? Well I got a site, it is really cool. If you want to check it out go to www.freewebs.com/heaven_leigh
I feel stupid. I got mad so I punched a wall. And it really hurt. But I think I learned my leason. My poor Choco was sick last night. He wouldn't eat or drink nothing! And when "Mel" tried to eat the food he wouldn't eat, he bit her, he gave her a bloody nose and lip...It was kinda scary...Choco has never biten anyone or anything hard enough to make them bleed. School was ok, I had a math test and well I think I didn't pass it, I didn't really take my time. I got mad at Jon today, because Caitlin was seeing what Jon would do if she said that I said it was over so she yelled out "Jon, Heaven said it was over!" And then he said that he didn't care! Well when they told him the were joking around he said he didn't care. And since he said that I got mad! If he doesn't care then why she I care about anything he siad right? Well I know it wasn't nice of Caitlin to tell Jon that I said it was over but I wish he cared a little. Maybe he is acting like that because he was around Kyle, but still he shouldn't be a jerk around his buddies! No matter what the cause. I haven't talked to my dad in a while, last time I knew they were going on some trip...My brothers' birthday is on the 23rd of this month. I hope I don't miss it. I haven't seen them much lately either. Oh I had a snowday yesterday, did I meantion that? Well anyway I stayed home and played on the computer. It was pritty fun..Well got to go help my mom clean house, again...


Heavenly
P.S. I LOVE BEING..ME

hey,

Jon:
I got mad at Jon today because he tucked his shirt in from bottom to
top and put a buck in his shirt and stuffed his shirt and made it look like
he had breasts. This is not him, normally he has no fun at all, he acts
older than he is, but this week has acted like a 5 year old! And he is 13.
Some times he is so ridiculous. Then he said sorry for acting like and
idiot, then did it again and said sorry, but I didn't believe him because he
said that the 1st time. Then I just didn't hug or give him a kiss instead I
got on my bus, and then I talked to Brittany on the phone and she said Jon
did it on their bus to! That made me so mad, he did it once and said he
wouldn't do it again and then did it again, then said he promised not to do
it because he didn't want me mad, so he does it behind my back. Now that's
what I call trust! NOT, so I guess I shouldn't trust him then. I just can't
believe he has been acting like this....Still love em

Jayme:
I haven't been hanging out with Jayme, and in fact she has been
trying to avoid me. Lately we have been hanin gout with completely different
people. She has been hanging out with Caitlin (she annoys me so much it's
not funny) and I have been hanging out with Layne,and Brittany, she are nice
but Jayme hates them. So I guess we are completely different.

Layne And Brittany:
They are so nice to me, they actually listen to what I have to say.
That is what I need right now. And also me and Brittany share each others
problems, and it is pretty cool.

The Dance:

The dance was so awesome I hung out with my friends about half the
time the other half I was either sitting out because my feet hurt or slow
dancing with Jon, he looked so freakin hot!!! DROOL SO FREAKIN HOT


Well that's all my recent updates except my cousins Lyle, and Shawn are here for a visit.